Ungrateful Bastards.

I wrote this yesterday, but i thought it might be information overload for those reading.

I will sort of start in the middle as i think its the best place to start. I put in so much effort for the SAPOL class, and i don't even get the support of the class, the teacher or the school. I spend hours sorting through thousands of photos, looking for the best, and from said thousands, there may be about 100 good ones, most taken by me.

The media group (all wanted to be in it) don't even know how to focus a camera, can't even aim a camera at the correct area, and always mange to take around 1 in 2 photos as a 'myspace' shot, even after the countless times I tell them their useless.

Rejection

I find it amazing how if two friends decide not to talk to you anymore can make you feel rejected. I never actually met Daniel and Nathan, but in the year or so I was talking to them, they gave me a world of help. Whether it be considering doing wrong by others, or making sure I didn't blow thing out of proportion or even doing the complete and utter wrong thing in general, their unbiased opinion was one of my most considered. These two guys were actually my life support, and by me simply telling someone something I shouldn't have, they decided to never talk to me again.

The part that made me fell the worst, was the fact that they didn't even say goodbye, just blocked me on msn, and terminated the friendship on facebook. And when I send an email, I get a reply saying that they will never speak to me again. I don't know if anyone reading this has ever been through a similar thing, but trust me, it makes you feel used, rejected, sick and like you don't fell the need to live. I don't recommend it

Its funny how just that simple thing, can actually make someone depressed, which I now am really. I then try to tell others, and they disappear on me as well. I hate the way I'm a shoulder to cry on, but as soon as I need help, everyone runs in different directions. And that if one bad thing happens in your life, everything goes wrong at the same time, so you never get a chance to recover before everything else piles on top of the first.

But I do have faith that all of this did happen for a reason, and that my decisions in the past may change, and make life a hell of a lot easier to live. But for now, I will continue to dwell in my self pity, and maybe, just maybe, they might change their minds.

I will fight on through these times, and with any luck, i will come out of this a better person, and as for all the other problems, i will just kill Mr. Gurr and the whole SAPOL class.

Holidays

Ok, well its now been 9 days since the holidays started, and i have successfully completed no homework that needed to be done. I've laid out over 50 pages for the yearbook, and now we cant do much more on it. I've finished the second DVD for SAPOL, and made the year presentation. But thats it, neither of those were homework, for school, but not homework. I now have tomorrow to finish my major PE assignment before i go on Rowing Camp (yay) and then go onto Bow Hill for the weekend. Does anyone else ever look back of their time off and realise that its been wasted on Facebook, Twitter, Myspace or the dreaded Farmville?

Luckily i have actually got something out of my spare time. I've now spent 3 days at church this week, and will be spending tomorrow there as well. Although I think one kid is really annoying (I'm sorry again Shade) I really do like spending time with him, Ben and Sean. Those memories will be the good parts of the holidays i remember. "Why isnt this one called Casual Outfit 74?" Sean. Well done, and our conversations on facebook, even though we were sitting on the same chair. I think we did well. The GLS sets are awesome.

But still, I look back and see that i have wasted so many hours, and now i wont get them back, and i now get to spend a week on camp, worrying about how that PE assignment is due at the start of week 2, and i still need to flip through a whole book, and interview 2 people. ugh, well wish me luck with it. Ill try live through camp, ill have hannah to look after me and keep my sanity. *goodie*

Grand Final

Today, i was at a friends birthday party, and of course we watched the game. I find it funny that we were all sitting in the lounge room, and by we i meant me, daniel, mother and father, along with 5 yelling boys, a girl, 6 40 yr old, and 2 really old people. and the amount of noise we made as a group, it was classic. What made it more exiting is that we had a blaence of supproters for each team, so whenever something happened, all 18 of us would abuse the tv. and when the final siren went, i wouldnt be suprised it the roof blew off. well it was very funny. and to think i spent over $15 texting Gabby during the game. wow im good.

DAMN FACEBOOK!!!

Its been about a week since I signed up for Farmville on facebook, and to be telling the truth, really bad decision!

Im afraid, as sad as it sounds, I have an addiction to it. I blame the creators, why make a game so appealing to youth? we must sue them! I find it funny that I have basically told friends to send gifts to me daily, just to I can increase my farm, and get more money!

Anyways, I must be off. Back to the farm really, Meh

I don't care any more.

Oh, I must bitch about one of my teachers. Mr Gurr is a tosser. He was meant to write the Yearbook article for SAPOL, but he palmed it off to me, and gave me 15 minutes to do it in class, and now, I'm doing his job for homework. He must die, maybe I could sue him as well?

Well now ill got back to the farm

Goodnight

We Have To Start Somewhere

Well, i felt that i never used my other blog, so i made a new one. it didn't really help that i had no idea what to do with anything, but who cares.

the last blog i posted was whilst i was in Italy, and that was in April. Since then my whole life has changed a lot, and i owe all the little different things to separate people, and those people i thank with all my heart. i have changed heaps in the last year, and while many people wouldn't have noticed it, i surly have. by doing some things i thought impossible, it has made me a better person, as i now like who i am (to an extent) and it will do for now. i still have years left to change it all. and i look forward to that day, and will welcome it with open arms.